And He Answered...

Not many of us are blessed with this incident more of a natural event but this year I happened to experience which I never thought would happen. I met god. I met him through my prayers. I called upon him and kept calling his names and after much waiting he answered. He heard each request I humbly served before him, I knew he would answer but the duration from asking to answering took days, though it seemed ages.
I came to realize that between fear an faith lies uncertainty and uncertainty destroys faith. I had to work hard from entering the state of fear and reaching the faith without loosing hopes which was arduous.
The perils of my prayers remaining unanswered drove me insane, spending innumerable hours analyzing what could be the reasons, chances..what sins could be the barrier, is my faith strong enough, are there certain guidelines, certain way to call upon god. Will the prayers be answered.
I tried knocking on different doors, hoping god will answer at least one  if not all. I kept knocking days after days but doors remained unanswered but when it was answered it took literally one second. He opened the door and showered me with all his love his blessings. That moment can not be put or described in words, the feelings of happiness that was pouring down my cheeks was unstoppable, that moment my eyes were pouring rain, that rain which washed away all my guilt, all my sorrows and to sum it all my sins. The state of uncertainty left my side and my faith was stronger than ever. I felt a wave of nostalgia; not sure why perhaps happy because my prayers were finally answered and sad because I was an arrogant disbeliever in past.
I now understand that there is always a time for prayers to be heard, though it takes time but important is to understand that during a difficult time your faith is being tested, the moment you give up your faith is in vain. The most important part of this incident is that god wanted me to knock on his doors, he wanted me to call his names days after days he wanted me to bow down in front of him  hence the pain, the troubles the sleepless nights were given to me. If they weren't I would have been the same arrogant, selfish person who knew there is a god but never tried reaching out to him.
xoxo